Plant In Tears (Part 2)

Well helloooo there! Long time no write! Last time I wrote here was in 2021 while I was in grad school. Let me catch you up on the happenings of my life and how we got to where we are right now:

• August 2022 – graduated from graduate school
• August 2022 – moved to Fort Worth, TX by myself
• September 2022 – started my career as a speech language pathologist
• 2022-2026: lived in Fort Worth and LOVED IT.
• February 2026: moved back to Nebraska

Over the last few years, I’ve had the thought that I should write a few different times, but I’ve always said this and I stand by it: I’ll only write if I feel like God is putting it on my heart, because it’s his words here – not mine. But the Lord has been stirring my heart for months as he prepared me to move, and I want to share it with you to hopefully encourage you in taking whatever step of faith the Lord is asking you to do. I’m calling this a “part 2” of my first ever blog post, “Plant in Tears.” I’ll link it here. 🙂

To begin to tell this story, first I need to provide context. Back in August of 2024, I started a job in Dallas because I had made plans to move there. Long story short, that job was really not a good fit and I immediately began to pray about what I should do. Over the course of a month, God began to get my attention with double and triple numbers. For example, I would randomly get a nudge to look at the clock and it would be 4:44. Or my Maps would have multiple double/triple numbers. They were everywhere! Now, I don’t believe in angel numbers, but I do believe that numbers are signifiant in the Bible and I believe God can speak to us in whichever way he chooses to. Over that month, God consistently gave me double and triple numbers— so consistently that I would literally laugh out loud. Like, yes — you have my attention God. I have so many screenshots because I knew God was doing something, and I wanted to have receipts to testify. Here’s a picture of just 1 example!!

I had received a job offer, and I had been praying so much about what I should do, but I wasn’t receiving a clear answer – just numbers everywhere. On the day of the decision deadline for this job, I saw multiple sets of double/triple numbers… which was not an answer, but I knew God was in this somehow. I didn’t know if this job would be the right fit or if it was right for me to leave, but I decided to take a step of faith and sign the offer. That same day, on my way home from work, I felt God nudge me to pay attention, so I looked up and the truck right in front of me had “a great job is right in front of you” written on it. That was the confirmation I was looking for, but it didn’t come until I was willing to trust the Lord and take a true step of faith.

Long story short, accepting that job led me to end up staying in Fort Worth (rather than moving to Dallas), which paved the way for me to heal in so many ways. And it’s also what made Texas feel like home.

God first told me about my move to Omaha in September of 2025. Like I said before, God can speak to us HOWEVER he wants to, and back in September, he spoke through videos I happened to see on social media. In September, I remember consistently seeing videos stating “you are moving”, and “your apartment will be completely paid for.” At the time, I wasn’t even considering moving out of Texas. I was confused by that message and wanted to disregard it and call it “algorithm,” but something about it rang so true in my heart. I started looking at other apartments in Texas, but then later, forgot about this message. In October, I came back to Omaha for a friend’s wedding. On the way back to Texas, I learned that a job that I’d always had my eye on was hiring for a speech pathologist back in Omaha, and I remembered the message I’d received in September. So after lots of prayer, I applied and interviewed. Again, I was so nervous to make the wrong choice or step out of God’s plan for me, so I remember praying before my interview, “God, if this is in your plan, make this work out so smoothly so that I know this is what I’m supposed to do.” Ultimately, I was offered the job, and I learned that they’d actually been trying to fill this spot for months, and every other interview they had fell apart. After tons of heart ache and prayer, I decided to accept the job, not knowing the future.

After I accepted the job, spiritual warfare hit – and HARD. The amount of doubt I had was CRAZY. There were so many times that I had to remind myself that these were not my thoughts, but strategy of the enemy to make me question my own faith. I learned that Satan loves to attack us when we are walking in the will of God to make us question God’s provision, protection, and ultimately our faith in who He is. I felt so scared to leave somewhere I considered “home,” and had fear of not knowing what was next. I feared making the wrong choice, and I found myself thinking, “did God really say that?” I’m so thankful for God’s grace in this season, and I learned how important it is to know His voice and to know scripture. Satan is still using the same old tricks, speaking the same thing to me as he did to Eve in the Garden of Eden, and the same things he spoke to Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane. If I had not drawn near to God in this time, I might have fallen victim to that. It was so critical to rely on Jesus in order to spot the tricks of the enemy and hold fast to my faith like Jesus did.

By the grace of God, I continued to take steps forward in faith. There were a lot of things that I needed to complete in order to move and work in Nebraska. And with every step forward I took, more peace followed, despite the doubts. I continued to pray and ask God to confirm to me that I was doing the right thing, but much like the situation with the job in Dallas, I never got a clear answer, so I continued to move forward.

As I continued to take steps forward, I ended up finding an apartment in Omaha that I really liked in December. Funny enough, the apartment complex was having a special for all February move-ins (the month I was moving)- $1800 credit toward rent. Coincidence? I think not!

Leaving Texas was hard. And I mean HARD. Like I said, that had become home for me, and I am so beyond grateful for that—it still feels like home today. I still didn’t know if this was right, but I continued forward and had to choose to believe. As I was leaving Texas, I remember driving in the car with my mom, crying as I was driving. I felt a nudge in my heart to “look.” I looked up, and driving right in front of me was the SAME TRUCK with the same writing on the back—“a great job is right in front of you.” That was the confirmation I had been praying about for months, but again, it didn’t come until I had taken action in my faith without knowing the outcome.

All in all, everything that God spoke to me was true and came to pass. I was moving, and quickly. My apartment was completely financially COVERED with extra leftover from the $1800 credit. And He confirmed it all in a way that He knew only I would understand so that there would be no way for me to miss it. Through my dismissal, doubts, sadness, fear, and questions, He was faithful. But because He is a father, He allowed this to also challenge me and grow my faith, while making sure I was covered and led every step of the way.

Here I am now in Omaha! And don’t get me wrong, just because this is where Jesus led me doesn’t mean I have it all together. In fact, I totally do not. I really don’t know what comes next or how long I am supposed to be here, and I still have a lot of things I’m praying consistently for. But one thing is true: I know that God has plans for me that are better and immeasurably more than I could think of on my own. When I continue to trust, surrender, and plant seeds (even in tears), there is no way to be on any other path besides God’s. And I trust that I will continue to reap harvests when the time is right because I have tasted and seen that the Lord is good!

I wanted to share this testimony to remind you that God IS good and sovereign. He will allow things to challenge you and grow you because He is a father and that’s what good dads do, and He’s always calling us higher. But good dads also make sure you are loved, taken care of, and protected—they never let you go the wrong way too long. I also wanted to remind you of an important lesson I continue to learn – faith requires action, because that’s where true faith comes in. So, go ahead. Place your faith in Jesus and take the next step… remember, it’s only dark because you’re in His shadow. 🙂

With love,

Sarah